My Aunt is back in the ICU. She stopped breathing last week a few days after they took out her trachea breathing tube. They don't know why. But she is holding steady now. I am thankful she is still alive. My Uncle said that she told him she heard her Mom calling to her when she stopped breathing... my Nana is dead. That sent shivers down my spine! And it made me cry. She must have almost died! I'm not sure what happens in those moments between life and death, but I am sure my Nana would be waiting at the threshold of Heaven's door for her beloved daughter. They had a very special connection. My Aunt took care of her during the final years in her own home, before Parkinsons took her life.
Today my 19 month old daughter fell four feet onto her head! We took her to the ER and had a CT scan done, she is fine. She has only the injury on the top of her head, a red rash-like scrape, and nothing else! Amazing! It makes me wonder if I can handle a second child though. I mean, how do you keep your eyes on two children running around when you can't even do that for one? (For details on the incident you can visit my other blog... link to the right. Title is "Unheeded Warning Signs") I had a feeling about something and I didn't follow it. I know now to always listen to those little yellow caution flags waiving in my brain. They seem silly sometimes, but its better to be safe than sorry. To top it off today is also my 7 year anniversary... Happy Anniversary! ha ha.... not quite what I had imagined to celebrate the day. But we are planning on going out tomorrow.
My husband's work has fired a bunch of captains, and now today he heard he is getting a pay cut. That isn't good news. He has been hoping to get a promotion and make MORE... not get less. Since we are thinking of having baby #2 soon we really want to see him get a raise soon. I still hope he makes captain soon. But he is nervous now, they have been really hard on the captains lately and he doesn't want the scrutiny or the pressure. But I think he will be fine. Everyone says he is captain material, and he is a very good pilot. So we will see where things go with that. In the mean time I am still trying to lose 20 lbs before we start trying. The time it takes me to lose the weight buys him some time with work also, hopefully things will iron out in that area before I get pregnant. He will be stressed if I get pregnant and things are not going well with his job. And as we wait to start adding to our family, hopefully KD won't be getting hurt either and causing me to second guess my parenting abilities.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Friday, May 8, 2009
My Aunt and babies
My Aunt has been moved out of ICU into a regular hospital room, so that is good news. Her recovery time is projected to be 6-9 months. I do not know how long she will be kept in the halo-brace. Her jaw will be wired shut for 3 months. I really feel for her and this long journey ahead of her. I can only hope she will be moved into her home eventually and won't be in the hospital when Christmas comes around. At this point 9 months hits in January 2010! I can't even imagine her being in her condition that long! My goodness!
Thinking about 9 months makes me think about having a baby and my family member who has been trying her 3rd IUI to get pregnant. This week we found out that 3rd try also failed. It breaks my heart that she is going through this rough time. I also didn't want to try for my second until she was pregnant with her first. But the time is coming soon when JD and I will be trying for baby #2. I am trying to lose more weight, so that is still keeping me from starting to try. As soon as I lose at least ten more pounds I will feel ready. I am trying to make that happen by then end of June, and the end of July the latest. I really want to start trying in June, but July may have to be the month. Of course with the pilot hubby's schedule when I am ready may not be when he is home. So, from this point on... whenever he is home we will be having the "should we try this time?" discussion. Because there are times he is home and I am not ovulating. And then there are times he is home and I am in the middle of an ovulation time period. This may be TMI... but that's the way it is when you have a pilot for a husband, and he is gone for 35 days at a time. It's my reality.
It's funny, JD's mom doesn't quite get this... that I am not always "capable" of getting pregnant when he is home. I was explaining to her that sometimes I am ovulating right before he gets home, so by the time he is home our chance is not there. And by the time I am ready again he is leaving, and the chances are not that good. When a woman ovulates is dependent on the frequency of her periods, which are not always a 28 day cycle, I explained to her. I really only have maybe three more chances this entire year to get pregnant, if I look at the times he is home and I am possibly "ripe." I can't be too picky at this point which month the next kid will be born in. I was telling her a few months back that we may try when the due date was February, and she said that isn't a good month because Valentine's Day is that month. And I was like... "Screw that! I don't care... I have to take what I can get if I want to have another kid before another year passes us by!" Of course, then JD and I decided not to try that month anyway. But still, that just irks me. "No. Not February!" OMG really lady, just butt out. Those were my thoughts. She means well, but she gots her head up her you know what sometimes. Of course, I was sharing with her our plans, so I have to expect some feedback.
I hope some miracle happens and my family member gets preggers SOON! That would be such a blessing. I really don't want to look into her eyes one day and say, "I'm pregnant." Knowing that she has been trying for so long with no success. I really would rather hear her say those words to me, like tomorrow would be good. Hee hee. Oh well, what God wills to happen will happen.
Thinking about 9 months makes me think about having a baby and my family member who has been trying her 3rd IUI to get pregnant. This week we found out that 3rd try also failed. It breaks my heart that she is going through this rough time. I also didn't want to try for my second until she was pregnant with her first. But the time is coming soon when JD and I will be trying for baby #2. I am trying to lose more weight, so that is still keeping me from starting to try. As soon as I lose at least ten more pounds I will feel ready. I am trying to make that happen by then end of June, and the end of July the latest. I really want to start trying in June, but July may have to be the month. Of course with the pilot hubby's schedule when I am ready may not be when he is home. So, from this point on... whenever he is home we will be having the "should we try this time?" discussion. Because there are times he is home and I am not ovulating. And then there are times he is home and I am in the middle of an ovulation time period. This may be TMI... but that's the way it is when you have a pilot for a husband, and he is gone for 35 days at a time. It's my reality.
It's funny, JD's mom doesn't quite get this... that I am not always "capable" of getting pregnant when he is home. I was explaining to her that sometimes I am ovulating right before he gets home, so by the time he is home our chance is not there. And by the time I am ready again he is leaving, and the chances are not that good. When a woman ovulates is dependent on the frequency of her periods, which are not always a 28 day cycle, I explained to her. I really only have maybe three more chances this entire year to get pregnant, if I look at the times he is home and I am possibly "ripe." I can't be too picky at this point which month the next kid will be born in. I was telling her a few months back that we may try when the due date was February, and she said that isn't a good month because Valentine's Day is that month. And I was like... "Screw that! I don't care... I have to take what I can get if I want to have another kid before another year passes us by!" Of course, then JD and I decided not to try that month anyway. But still, that just irks me. "No. Not February!" OMG really lady, just butt out. Those were my thoughts. She means well, but she gots her head up her you know what sometimes. Of course, I was sharing with her our plans, so I have to expect some feedback.
I hope some miracle happens and my family member gets preggers SOON! That would be such a blessing. I really don't want to look into her eyes one day and say, "I'm pregnant." Knowing that she has been trying for so long with no success. I really would rather hear her say those words to me, like tomorrow would be good. Hee hee. Oh well, what God wills to happen will happen.
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